After years of procrastination and lack of confidence, I finally decided to turn ideas into practical operation. And that’s the birth of my business - 背包遊學客 Affordable Study Tours.
Although fears of failure still haunts me, I chose to treat “business” with a more casual approach this time. Shortly after the website is published, many other aspects of my life started to fall together. This is a milestone and a major leap for me towards my dreams. As uncertain life continues to be, I’m taking my time to march on with a better sense of direction and purpose.
The Chinese New Year vacation has officially ended on this side of the world. Like many people, I took the chance to travel and relax…or supposedly. Took a trip that gave me many new memories and laughable moments. Photographed amazing views and put on hundreds of kilometers on my vehicle. All is well in general, despite some incidents and conflicts on the road. This week passed by like a blink of an eye, ending with an under rested mind needing more relaxation from this eventful vacation. As my friend said, I feel I need a vacation from my vacation.
Happy Chinese New Year!
Just a couple months ago, I couldn’t check any of the above. Now, my face is wearing a big smile while going through this list and checking every one of them.
Can blessings run out? How different life can be when the state of mind is changed! From a control freak to letting things flow, I’m filled with gratitude every day. Don’t know why I spent that much time worrying and pulling my hair for things I was never meant to control or anticipate. How silly!
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Have always been a girl who seeks danger and excitement, but scared the hell out while in adventures. Can adrenaline rush cause such self-conflicting addiction to the extremes? The thrill of being afraid?
“Follow your heart,” most people would say when I share my dreams and frustrations. The human heart is such a delicate and vital organ that we cannot live without. And it governs our lives from the moment it composes its first beat. Unlike the mainstream culture, especially in the Asian culture, I do tend to follow my heart most of the time and choose the roads less traveled. Lately, I kept hearing myself share a part of my past when a simple material comfort was a luxury. It was a time of homelessness, in between jobs and being frugal at every meal. Yet, looking back, that was the most motivating and fulfilling part of my life. It struck me that I’ve been longing for that passion towards life where I lived every day to the fullest and looked forward to what tomorrow will bring. It was a time full of hopes and missions. A time when I followed my heart but somehow left it behind on my way to the conventional success.
Maybe it’s just me. But it seems the more I have, the less content I am and vice versa. This is probably due to that thing we call “greed.” It’s been several years since I had to worry about my next meal. And it has been similar number of years that I feel passionless. There are still many things I’d like to do and places I’d like to explore, though. But as I get older, my brain seems to take over the operation while the heart gets demoted to an assistant position. Maybe this is my heart’s protest; its asking for attention. There’s an urge I cannot explain. An unstoppable urge to change how I live my current life. But what do I change it into? The brain decides to go on a strike when I pay more attention to the heart. Would they ever sync and work together again like the good old days? Which do I listen to when they don’t agree with each other?